Ohhh it has been quite a long time since i last blogged (:
have been going out everydayyyyy except for today.
hahhha busy huhhh.
Just finished helping yl with the registration thingy.
My stupid stacy sister was nagging beside me laaa arghh.
cannot give me any peace. she must be too stressed up with the whole lots of student council stuffs plus homework.
Bleahhh.
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Hmmmmmm anyway it has been so long since i've not been studying in tpjc.
honestly, i still miss studying there.
like now, my friends are studying and im at home.
sometimes, i cant help it but to feel that i've really made the wrong decision.
guys, its natural, right?
i guess this feeling will fade when poly starts.
i really hope that i've chosen the best couse ever man which will enable me to go uni to do business.
i wonder, if i didnt go for the 3 months jc thing, will i feel this way?
i think i'll go like, omggg my raw r4 score is 11 so i can finally do my tourism course!!
lol i've been aiming for tourism since sec 3 i guess.
but i didnt actually feel that way when i got my results.
maybe cause, firstly, i didnt improve..my prelims were also 11 =X
oh and i didnt feel happy too cuz i was looking at my r5 score, not r4, since i felt like going to jc alrdy after my 6 weeks there.
my r5 improved though. 1 pt only -.-" from 16 to 15.
couldnt really feel the joy cuz the people around me didnt do as well as me..
i cant possibly jump like so high people will think that im a show off.
and also of course i wanted my r5 score to improve like quite alot but apparently its not that way..
so i was rather sad there but i couldnt cry cuz my friends will like kill me.
you get what i mean?
and also my feelings cldn't go up cuz my close friends didnt get what they wanted.
oh and my classmates were telling me that i did so well.
i want to be like damn happy man, but i didnt exactly feel that.
then i gotta act like im yeah, happy, but my close friends know that im so not.
u see, the O lvl results day was, could have been a happy one for me, but many situations just made it just not.
but on the other hand was happy for my jc friends as they scored well (:
haizz okay im here saying this over and over AGAIN.
i really hope i'll feel assured and happy that im in tourism now.
oh man, lots of people have actually alrdy assured me that that's like the best alrdy but im still worried that i'll still cling onto jc life not letting it go.
i really hope that i'll meet awesome friends agn like janice,mingen,wanling and xinrong.
OH MANNNNN THIS FEELING IS TORMENTING.
friends, dont worry, i guess i'll be okay as time passes.
okay, and those who cant get in tourism though they made the COP or their pts are close will like kill me too. cuz im in and yet im still complaining.
urghhh im sorry i just have to take more time, to adjust myself alright.
this is my blog right, so i have the right to spout all the nonsense i want.
just that u guys gotta read it (:
u've to know wad's going on with me right? so yeah there goes.
i'll be alright. (: i hate myself for being so pessimistic!! ahhh!!
okayy end here.
blog abt mon,tues,wed ltr. (: